Fashioned By God
By Hailey Frazier, Fashion Designer,
Founder of H. Lane Design
When I was a little girl, I believed in fairy tales even though I did not live in one. I remember placing a photo cutout of a beautiful model under my pillow, then praying and asking God to make me beautiful so that I could be loved.
During my difficult childhood, I was raised to know there was “a God” but without an understanding of how GOOD He is. Because of this, I would grow up to make poor decisions for my future. I was barely an adult when I married a man who challenged everything I knew about God, to the point that I, myself began to question God’s existence. I decided to turn my back on “the one who turned his back on me as a little girl.”
Soon I gave birth to a sweet baby boy, but my marriage was shattered in pieces beyond repair. It ended before our son’s first birthday, and I found myself a young, divorced, single mom, convinced that no one could ever love me like the fairy tales I once believed in my childhood.
However, during the process of my marriage ending, something redeeming happened. I finally cried out to God one night on the floor of my closet, for the first time in a long time.
“God, I try so hard to be a good person, so why is my life so broken?!”
It was then that I realized I was CHOOSING a path of poor decisions, over the path God has planned for me and wants for me. The One who I had turned my back on, had NEVER turned His back on me. In that desperate, dark closet moment, God clearly answered me. Though I was shattered, He would be with me to pick up the pieces, and lead me toward His plan for my life.
I spent the next four years pouring out all of the poison in my life, and pouring in God’s love and His Word. Slowly, He began restoring broken relationships with my family. As I finally began to understand how good God really is (God really is GOOD!), I finally began to find my true identity. The Bible says in 1 Peter 2:9:
“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light.”
Daily, I would cling to this verse privately because it made me feel like I was royalty. Why? Because I was finally learning as a believer in Christ, the words of this verse are for ME, TOO! I am a Daughter of The KING!
During this time, I was introduced by my father and stepmother to Keesee Ministries’ teachings on how God’s Kingdom works. I began to see, right in front of my eyes, their lives dramatically changing and I knew I wanted to experience God’s Kingdom in my earthly life, too.
I learned from Scripture that He “has plans to give me a hope and a future” (Jeremiah 29:11), and that the difficulties of my childhood to the ending of my marriage did not mean the ending of my hopes, my dreams and my future. I began learning how to speak blessings over my life and my son. I also began asking God to send the man that HE has chosen for my future.
Then, a man I once knew as a friend resurfaced in my life. Now living in Europe as a photographer, our friendship was at first restarted by long-distance phone conversations (since I lived in Tennessee). Gradually, weekly chats deepened to long talks on a daily basis…then to sweet “virtual date nights.” We would each make a trip to the grocery store across oceans from one another, buying the same foods to cook and enjoy cooking together via video chat. Then we would watch the same movie together via video chatting.
We had endless discussions about what we wanted in life, talking for hours about God’s Word and His work in our life. Over time, as we listened and learned from each other, and “dated” in this rather unconventional way, something began to happen. LOVE began to happen…with a man I once saw only as a friend, and had yet to even hold hands with!
Eventually he asked me to fly to Europe, so that we may have our first date in person and spend some time together. I had never even been outside of the country, let alone on a long international flight. But by the end of that magical trip, seeing the Eiffel Tower in Paris, and the Alps in Switzerland (a fairy tale “first date”!!), we both knew this was meant to be. We both knew without a doubt God had brought us together.
In the following months he came to Tennessee to meet my son and my family, and it was an instant fit. Everyone agreed! My next visit to Europe, he told me he had set up a photoshoot at a beautiful castle in France called Château De Chambord. After an hour of taking photos of me wearing a gorgeous ball gown that seemed to be straight out of a Disney movie, he suddenly dropped to one knee on the ground of this beautiful castle. You guessed it; He proposed!
The little girl who once gave up on God and believing in fairy tales was now standing in a real-life fairy tale, with the man God chose for me because I surrendered, and asked Him to choose for me. Six months later, we had a lovely wedding in Tennessee, followed by two years living in Europe.
There is so much more of this story to tell, but God is still “fashioning” it as only He can do. That long-ago cutout photo I once put under my pillow as a young girl? It has new meaning for me now. It was a preview of the future that would one day come, after I gave the mess of my life to God.
From my desperate prayer on the floor of a dark closet, God would turn my mess… into DRESS.
My newly launched handmade artisan clothing and fragrance line, H. Lane Design, is now coming into the light. I call it “a little bit of Nashville, a little bit of Paris!” I’m thrilled and honored that my work will be featured in this year’s NASHVILLE FASHION WEEK, followed by fashion week features in Vancouver and Paris.
I’m living the dream…of a Daughter of The KING!
God has a fairy tale for you, too. Surrender yourself, your hopes and your dreams to Him, and seek HIS KINGDOM FIRST in your life!
“But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.” - Matthew 6:33
About Hailey Frazier
Nashville born Native Hailey Frazier has always had an interest in creative arts, learning in her early years to quilt and use a sewing machine. As a young teen, she entered her first quilted product in a Tennessee state contest and took home two awards, including first in show. With later experience in modeling, life would lead her to Europe where she began studies in Fragrance and Perfume Mastery at Cinquieme sens, a leading perfuming school in Paris, France. After obtaining a degree in Master Perfuming, Hailey’s youth years of quilting experience would return to the forefront as she began to apprentice as an Artisan Felt Artist under J. Hill in Stuttgart, Germany. The unique skills she learned during this time led her to launch H. Lane Design, a handmade artisan clothing and fragrance line, now being featured in fashion shows worldwide. She resides in Nashville with her husband, Timo and son, Preston. To see what’s happening with Hailey’s fashions and products, follow her on Instagram @handsome.hailey .
Hailey’s reSOURCEs
The Keesee ministry “Kingdom” teachings that changed my life:
A book about identity that changed my life:
CAPTIVATING by John and Stasi Eldridge
A book about marriage that changed my life: